With or without you

Cindy – With Or Without You

Many roads I have walked

Breakin’ thru all the rocks

Kickin’ all the pebbles

Here I am where I belonged

Not regreting what I’ve done

Better person I become

It’s all up to you what to say

I don’t give a damn what you think about me

I make my path I make my future

If you think your judgement can bring me down

You better think twice ‘coz

Aint nothing pulls me apart

I’m so much stronger than I was before

And I can make it thru with or without you

With or without you

Many years I have passed

Many sweeter things like lies

The more of bitterness I’ve tasted

But I don’t care what’s in the past

Let it burried in the grave

Cause I am walking out untainted

It’s all up to you what to say

I don’t give a damn what you think about me

I choose my path I choose my future

Though my future in your eyes seems so far away

You better think twice ‘coz

It’s never beyond my reach no..

I’m halfway there I’ll make it to the end

Yes I will make it thru with or without you

With or without you

Great week

Assalamualaikum kamu... hello.... felt a little bored today.. kan liat tv mcm mls jua.. liat series lagi th malas..hmmm... i've downloaded maher zain's songs just now.. i love them all.. he's accompanying me now.. with his soothing voice.. love him... oklah maybe a lil update of my previous week which was super fun and busy berabis..hehe 

Monday : went with the gorgeous wonderful ladies; eyan, dy, hana & mena using Eyan's new ride..wewiiiiiiiit!!hehe as planned, we went to UBD first to pick up the collections for the beach party at UBD from our 18+7 gengs.. discussed some stuffs about the party; the games and the foods then off we went to have our lunch then huaho manggis, supersave to buy the foods and gifts then went back home to tutong.. had a great time with them.. lama bah inda jumpa.. bebotox mua ketawa saja.. haha!

Wednesday : Our BEACH PARTY at Angel Beach Tutong.... one word, FUN! heheh there were 10 games.. i didnt won any p manang sorak saja lah..ahaha paling barimalu was time truth or dare... hmmmmm.. malas ku gto eh..ahaha i was asked to buat pantun about the party p since aku ni mcm blurrr sikit bah part2 literature ani..ahaha adakah bemukun plg ku.. ceh! manasajath... since it was spontaneous aku pun inda tau apa ku ckp.. yang ku ingat ada pasal 'Kulit ayam tekulabak???' WTH!ahaha the other one was if i want to be a famous person who would that be? i said, 'monalisa' hehehe there were also ice dance game.. ani paling siuk lah but me, dy and eyan paling awal keluar....pyh nyamu nahan ketawa.. meliat c dyane g tunggang2..ahaha cali bah tu..ahah then jadi makeup artist while tutup mata.. kesiaaann eyan.. hehe lots more lagi... fun fun fun.. paling siuuk part makan lah...ahahah nyums!

Friday : celebrated ajes' birthday (previous posts)

Saturday : Malamnya went to dewan Tutong to watch the lil brother sing..hehe siuk2.... feel soooooo proud of them, the lil kids... they dare to sing in front of the crowd and some of them were pretty good.. kan titik2 jua air mata.hehe the lil brother dapat saguhati saja..hehe inda apalah.. there're many opportunities to come.. paling penting is the experience atu kan... cant buy that anywhere..

Sunday : Balik kampung to nini at kampung ayer!! ani paling siuukk..eheh BBQ n limpang2 rah pantaran..hehe first time jua in my life meliat kampung ayer banar2 tuhur sampai some parts of it nada air lagi.. nampak tanah saja.. amazing right?hehe malamnya went to perayaan at lapau..heheh tau th kamu tu requested by siapa..ahaha 

Great week indeed.. now its a new week sudah.. the final week of the holidays.. aku alum ready lagiiiiiiiiiiii..... huaaaaaaaaaa!! ntah aaa inda jua ku mau cuti.. p inda jua ku mau start uni...ahaha ntam.. wish me luck! :) Sudah start uni grenti jarang th lagi ku blogging ni....hopfully inda lah..... bye2.. kan karaoke ku dulu..

A 4 years old treasure :)

Look what ive found! heheh this was made 4 years ago during my 1st year, 1st semester of Diploma progam for English class under one of my fav lecturer, Mrs. Ming Brown :) she asked us to compose an autobiography of ourselves.. reading this made me NEARLY CRY but most of the time it made me SMILE :) 4 years back aah.. of course lots of things happen in 4 years.. but Syukur Alhamdulillah for this great life.. im happy to be in it :) Hope kamu inda boring membaca.. if rasa malas kan baca tidak paksa ya..hehe i just wanna treasure it here :) Love always~ Oh btw.. the intro inda ku masukkan cos mcm bari malu sikit..ahah this is direct copy+paste from my doc :) wana know me more??? here's the thing for you...

            My mother once told me the history of how I was born and I was surprise to know that right before I was born, when my mother on the way to the hospital, the ambulance which was sending her to the hospital had a serious accident in front of the old Kilanas mosque. The ambulance was speeding and unfortunately crashed onto a traffic light and turned over. Luckily, a nurse who was accompanying my mother broke the ambulance window and helped her get out from the ambulance as quickly as possible. After that, another ambulance came to pick my mother up and brought her to RIPAS Hospital. Not long after the arrival to the hospital, my mother had a safe delivery and I was born. My parents named me, Nurul Khairunnisa an Arab name which means The Light of Decent Woman.    

           

            I am thankful after the serious accident, my mother was still alive and able to give birth to me. Without the help of the nurse and protection from God, I would not be seating and writing this autobiography of me now. When I was a month old, I used to be called ‘Tuah’ which means Lucky but then, my aunty changed my nickname to ‘Mumui’. I do not know the meaning of that name but until now my family, my relatives and my close friends will called me by this name. For other people who just knew me, they will call me by the name of Nurul.  I am the second child in my family birth order, came before me was my sister and after me were my three brothers.

 

            What I can say about my family’s relationship is that we are really close. We always go out to dine and go shopping together. At home, we always have breakfast, lunch and dinner together and we will always have light and easy talk which will always be accompanied with laughter. During my free time at home, I will bake cakes or cook with my mother because my mother loves cooking and I really adore her for the fact that she can cook really well and able to manage the entire household on her own ever since my parents got married until this present time. My mother is a full-time housewife and she organized every necessities of my family. I really respect my parents and to me they are the best parents in this world.

 

            I am lucky because for these 20 years of my life span, I always have my parents beside me. My parents are the ones who constantly encourage, support and guide me during my happy times and hardships. They are always there for me when I needed them the most, they are there to lent their shoulders to lean on when I am sad or depressed, they are the ones who will lent their ears to listen to my problems or even my nonsense stories and most importantly, they are the people who will always try to protect and defend me in every complex or dangerous situation I face during my lifetime. I really admire my parents and I love them so much.

 

            Since my father worked as a soldier, when I was small we used to live in Muara Camp. I can still remember that our neighbors were really friendly and we were really closed. When I was seven years old, my father had to work overseas to Singapore and we stayed there for three consecutive years. It was fun staying there and I studied in an International School of Singapore. Schooling there was very much different from here. The academic curriculum there is not examination oriented and everyday there will be a lot of fun activities and games assigned by the teacher for us to do. There were music class, drama class, home science class, art class and alot more.

 

            After three years in Singapore, we went back to Brunei and live in Binturan Camp. I go to Binturan Primary School and finish my PCE Examination there. During my secondary school years, I go to Sufri Bolkiah Secondary School for one year then I had to transfer to Bukit Beruang Secondary School until I finished my form sixth years. After I had done my A’Level, I applied an Information System course in Institute of Technology Brunei and a Diploma in Primary School course in University Brunei Darussalam. I successfully went through both the interviews and got offered from both institutes. It was hard for me to choose which course to choose at first, but after so many advices I got from my parents and relatives, I decided to go to UBD and I am so happy that I chose to go to UBD because after three month I have been in this course, I started to love it. I think I was destined to be a teacher and I believe I can be one.

 

            I dream I can be a Mathematics Teacher because I love Mathematics subject since I was in pre-school. It is not that I do not like other subjects, but I love Mathematics more.  I do not know the exact reason why but I am always eager to learn anything if it got to do with Mathematics.  The subject which gives me the worst headaches is Physics. I never liked studying Physics mainly because of the teacher and the complexity of the subject.

 

            There are a lot of happy times in my life that I faced together with my family and my friends. Almost everyday are happy times for me because I have such wonderful and cheerful friends. They always cheer my days up and we often do things together. The sad times happened three years back when my grandfather pass away. That was the only the sad times that I can still remember until now. I usually try to erase any unpleasant memories from my mind and keep the pleasant ones sticking until forever.

 

            Life means alot to me. Life is meaningless without laughter and with laughter life will get more meaningful. My goals in life are of course, to be a successful person, get a decent job with good salary and make my parents happy and proud. I have this strong fear or phobia of crawling insects. Just imagining it will make my body shiver. I dislike cockroaches the most. Even the plastics cockroach will make me jump and run away. One of the strengths that I have in me is that I can be a good and loyal friend to anyone. I can be a good listener, a good helper and a good supporter and one of my weaknesses is that I tend to have short-term memory. I tend to forget where I put my things even if it happens a minute ago.

 

            To me, the most important thing in life is to be patient, just go with the flow and have a good time even in the most disguise moments of our life because there is always a blessing in disguise. I hope in the future, my life will still be as meaningful as well as wonderful as it is now. In 10-15 years from now, I wish I will have my own family consisting of my loving and responsible husband and our cute kids and has stable economic foundations. I want to live harmoniously with my family, be a good and loyal wife, a loving mother and be as strong and wonderful as my parents. If I am given the chance to change anything, I think I would not like to change anything because to me, my life is simple yet perfect.

Nisfu Syaaban

Kamu..... Assalamualaikum... its nisfu syaaban~ semoga semua amalan kita diberkati dan diterima olehNya jua..Amin~~~ 

Nisfu dalam bahasa arab bererti setengah. Nisfu Syaaban bererti setengah bulan Syaaban. Malam Nisfu Syaaban adalah malam lima-belas Syaaban iaitu siangnya empat-belas haribulan Syaaban.

Malam Nisfu Syaaban merupakan malam yang penuh berkat dan rahmat selepas malam Lailatul qadr. Saiyidatina Aisyah r.a. meriwayatkan bahawa Nabi saw tidak tidur pada malam itu sebagaimana yg tersebut dalam sebuah hadis yg diriwayatkan oleh Imam Al-Baihaqi r.a:

Rasulullah saw telah bangun pada malam (Nisfu Syaaban) dan bersembahyang dan sungguh lama sujudnya sehingga aku fikir beliau telah wafat. Apabila aku melihat demikian aku mencuit ibu jari kaki Baginda saw dan bergerak. Kemudian aku kembali dan aku dengar Baginda saw berkata dlm sujudnya, “Ya Allah aku pohonkan kemaafanMu daripada apa yg akan diturunkan dan aku pohonkan keredhaanMu daripada kemurkaanMu dan aku berlindung kpdMu daripadaMu. Aku tidak dpt menghitung pujian terhadapMu seperti kamu memuji diriMu sendiri.”

Setelah Baginda saw selesai sembahyang, Baginda berkata kpd Saiyidatina Aisyah r.a. “Malam ini adalan malam Nisfu syaaban. Sesungguhnya Allah Azzawajjala telah dtg kpd hambanya pada malam Nisfu syaaban dan memberi keampunan kpd mereka yg beristighfar, memberi rahmat ke atas mereka yg memberi rahmat dan melambatkan rahmat dan keampunan terhadap orang2 yg dengki.”

Hari nisfu sya’aban adalah hari dimana buku catatan amalan kita selama setahun diangkat ke langit dan diganti dengan buku catatan yang baru. Catatan pertama yang akan dicatatkan dibuku yang baru akan bermula sebaik sahaja masuk waktu maghrib, (15 Sya’aban bermula pada 14 hb sya’aban sebaik sahaja masuk maghrib)

Credits to: http://almizan.wordpress.com/2009/05/23/nisfu-syaaban-dan-fatwa-tentangnya/

:)

i had a superduper great sunday today with my beloved ones..... but im too tired to typed anything... will make an update soon :) do take care...... i always wonder how comfortable a water bed feels aaaaa... hmmmmm... anyone of you have one? if comfy berabis... i really wanna have one nanti.. tautah kediaku ani selalu jadi mangsa insomnia..hehhe and have anyone of you ever feel tired of being nice? oh well... life isnt always fair right... i always remind myself to never expect anything in return and always offer/give anything to anyone with open arms and with true honesty :) cheers~